dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak

aili_atrophy @ 2009-07-22T12:01:00

2009-07-22T17:08:57Z

I have a tumblr!

you should get one

WHAT DO I DO WITH MY LIFE NOW?

2009-07-06T23:43:03Z

Panic at the Disco broke up today. I am really pissed, torn between wanting to sob my eyes out and punching a hole in a wall. WHAT DO I DO WITH MY LIFE NOW? SERIOUSLY. THEY WERE SO OKAY AND THEY WENT TO SOUTH AFRICA TOGETHER AND AND AND AND AND NOW THEY JUST WON'T BE TOURING TOGETHER ANYMORE WTF WTF WTF WTFFFFF.

sorry for only giving you my sad breaking news of the fact that my favorite band just split in two after so long without an update, but there's not much to report on.

Writer's Block: Multilingual

2009-06-01T21:52:48Z

How many languages do you speak?

Submitted By 40alatariel

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I can read, speak and write both English and Spanish. but I'm working on that with French - especially with the speaking. the fact that I can't roll my R's in Spanish to save my life ruin my French words.

Writer's Block: Look at Me/Don't Look at Me

2009-05-18T02:24:34Z

Do you seek attention or hide from it?

Submitted By novarr

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Half the time I secretly crave it, but my theological part of my brain condones it and labels that Pride. So the other half of my time is spent hiding from it. Being in the spotlight makes me cringe - literally and figuratively speaking.

Writer's Block: Swine Times

2009-05-01T01:59:45Z

Are you worried about catching the swine flu? Do you have a plan for avoiding contagion or dealing with quarantine?

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It's just scaring me that everybody is making a big deal about it - dude, I've been sick for the past week. stop freakin' me out. I'm such a hypochondriac, though, I always think I'm catching the latest disease. it's usually nothing.

and, also, think of how wrong of an approach people took to protecting themselves in 1918 during the Spanish influenza. they covered everything EXCEPT THEIR NOSE, WHICH WAS THE SOURCE.

/rant

existentialism

2009-04-27T02:58:23Z

does it make sense to be very much a night owl yet be so afraid of the dark? because I'm not really sleepy. at all.
(OMGAH I THINK JASPER HALE FINALLY BIT ME.)

Writer's Block: LiveJournal Book Club

2009-04-25T17:33:10Z

Out of all of your favorite books, pick just one you'd recommend everyone read. As a bonus: why did you pick that one?

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Invisible Monsters by Chuck Palahniuk. I have to give you a warning, though: if you can't handle sexual references and open talk about sex and gore and blood, then don't let the though of buying it cross your mind. Aside from that, I pick zees wahn because the stream of concience-ness (sp?) thing with this book is unbelievable! He writes the way I think and it just oozes awesome from every page. :3

enfermarse

2009-04-24T01:35:19Z

I'm sick. like, really really sick. I HATE THE RHINO VIRUS. ('cause, y'know, it's supposedly the cause of The Flu) I don't like having a big bad rhino stomp on my nose and punch my tonsils with its menacing horn. eww.
as much as I'd thought I could avoid it, my attempts failed. people in my classes don't wear jackets/sweaters when it's cold outside (yes, didn't you know that proper cold weather attire is a t-shirt and shorts?) and don't know how to sneeze or cough. so I'm sick now.
my throat feels like sandpaper and I felt extremely worn out today, so I couldn't be too excited or else my tonsils would feel like they're on fire.

the things that overcomes all crap about being sick today was that he did that thing where he pretends like my bookbag's been open and he closes it - "You're all zipped up". he ttlly loves me <3

someone I know recommended drinking tea, but the ones that we have in the pantry taste like paper :l
any suggestions??

long overdue

2009-04-15T19:27:57Z

alright, Binh. I'm ready for my totally overdue links and pictures now. BRING IT ON.

Writer's Block: Confidences

2009-04-12T14:55:35Z

Who do you think it is easier to talk about your problems with: your friends, your family, or strangers?

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A stranger in my family who is my friend.

Sin Limites

2009-04-11T21:54:50Z

En verdad, no creo que me moleste tanto lo de el estando desnudo...TENGO MUCHAS GANAS DE VERME ESTA PELICULA. Hay un monton de gente que dicen que no van a verla solo porque sale encuero. A quien le importa?! Porque lo importante es que la pelicula es sobre Dali, Robert como Dali, y que Robert Pattinson ESTA BUENOOOO.

/spanish

"that's so hot ;)"

2009-03-20T01:42:23Z

O dearest livejournal,
how I have longed for thee so.
Dare not look the other way
for I have not forgotten thee.
The chores of my studies have
torn us apart.

if I could write poems at any given hour, they'd look like that. and they'd be etched into trees. :P so! I have been on an unofficial break from this journal which - according to lj - was 3 weeks long. sorry. I've been...busy. today was enough to write a book as is.
so. I hope to inform you with the adventures of my awesome days at school more frequently. hopefully.

he told me something the other day.
(okay, well, txted...)

"just be yurself. Thts the reason i like you in the first place :)"
it reminds me that if you try to change to squeeze into the mold of others, you looks your chocolate chips of awesomeness. g'night! :D

"get off the drugs and go to sleep"

2009-02-24T21:36:44Z

srsly, I don't think you should go to Ryan Ross'/Panic at the Disco's blog to tell Ryan all about how you've "lost all respect" for him just because he apparently cheated on his girlfriend. DUDE, REMEMBER THAT ONE SONG HE WROTE ABOUT BEING CHEATED ON?? obviously this is even more pointless than when Panic released their latest album and half the fandom was declaring that they were no longer fans just because their sound changed.
uh-huh. The Beatles were still JUST as poppy when 3 years passed? right. (well I don't know if that's true so only throw soft things if I'm wrong!)

my opinion is that people should just stop screwing up Ryan's (come on, it's practically his) blog with random spam comments that continue to appear in mass block form after about 5 seconds of scrolling down the page.

/rant
sincerely, me <3

OT: he made me say 'I love you' again. AGHHH?!!?!
the important thing is that he actually called this time. and it was almost 7 minutes :d

my math grade

2009-02-23T22:36:16Z

now I know that I officially fail.

Paramore es una banda

2009-02-19T23:16:31Z

I've been looking at pictures of Hayley Williams lately to think up of an idea, since, you know, I'm going to get a haircut in about an hour! me = extremely excited. indeed. this means that now I won't have hair in my left eye at random times, I'll be able to see again, and my hair'll be able to get longer faster. (btw if you haven't noticed, Hayley Williams is my slight girl crush/hero. she's amazing, I love her. and her hair + style is amazing, even when she looks like Charmander.)

YAAAAAY!!1!!1!!!13@$!~!

so. I feel really confident that I got an A on my last Geometry test. I studied pretty hard (okay, minus one section. who thought there'd by 3 questions on that? WTF). assuming that I got an A, the parade from Nine in the Afternoon will be occuring when I jump up and down ~~in class, pretending like no one's watching~~ in my mind. to myself.
yes, this includes Brendon's little skippy thing. that'll happen a lot. :D

Love will tear us apart

2009-02-09T00:54:51Z

I married Omar. that is all.

still in my pj's while watchin' the Grammy's

2009-02-09T00:51:28Z

I smell like a dude. it's gross...I haven't had a shower yet. ick.
but! today, despite my all day marathon of America's Next Top Model watching, I discovered a site called lookbook.nu, which - honestly - sucks you in. you spend hours staring at these really cool people with Nikons and Canons and clothes that look like they just came from a Parisian runway. ugh. it's just beautiful.
by the way, mother and I will be getting haircuts next weekend, and I'm still on the hunt for my low-top black Converses so...if anyone spots them, tell me so.

"you are my nasty love"

2009-01-29T22:23:08Z

so, I didn't do last night's math homework. tomorrow we have a test - but that's not the point. the point is that I'm doing pretty well in all of my classes and I'm not planning on slacking off until 7:30 at night to do my homework this semester. Hooray for planning!
also: I'm figuring out how this'll work, but my mom is urging me to plan the April 23rd concert for Fall Out Boy! it involves inviting friends and lots of planning ahead - which is probably my mom's favorite thing in the entire universe. now all I have to do is show friends the info and recruit amigitas to go with me! WHO'S IN??

false insomnia

2009-01-11T07:12:34Z

it's 1:55 and I'm still not asleep yet. I didn't do my homework today but at least picked up the clothes that had still been lying in my suitcase for upwards of a week. um...still no update on my story. I partially air-dried my hair today and now I have "model frizz". I'm kind of sad knowing that when I wake up, my waves & curls won't look the same. but there is good news: I had bistec de palomilla today! if you've never even heard of that, then you're missing out on a vital part of life. OMG IT IS SOOO GOOOD -dies- it's pretty much the kind of awesome hispanic food that I hardly ever turn down, even though it has the potential to endanger my health and make me nauseous, lol. mami and I went to Plato's Closet today and they accepted only 3% of what I went in with - a total of $5.05, but I got 2 tops and some FLARED PANTS! (cue the parade) for some odd reason almost all flared pants not bought in Colombia make me feel extremely short and pudgy. but these don't. these make me feel awesome!

btw, the layout changed again. Binh said the other one was better- true - because, tbh, I wasn't liking it much after a day or so with it. so now my first layout is up. I like it. I missed it.
I have a goal for this month: use less I's in my entries. they make me feel conceited when I type ;____; also, aside from the Quote of the Day thing that I want to do, I'm thinking of giving you snippets of Ryan's blog and making it advice. because he says awesome things on a daily basis.

"A day without laughter is a day wasted."
- Charlie Chaplin

Ryan Ross Said:

Thats it for now, try something though. When you look in the mirror, smile.

-RR

It's Not Your Fault

2009-01-10T03:13:06Z

I called my dad and told him what was up. I told him everything I have tried stuffing down deeper into my chest until I started going on for 16 minutes on the phone, summing up about a year or two of crap he's given me. and it felt awesome. I didn't even heave when we hung up. now I feel like I can take on the world, because, hopefully, he won't give me excuses and more crap again.

on a happier note: he's been talking to me all week. it's not really awkward anymore, which is good. I have a plan for monday but who knows if he lurks here? my week has gone really well, which is somewhat odd. I'm used to having a small event create The Snowball Effect, but not this week. BRING ON THE NEW YEAR!
someone tell me of something totally amazing that happened in their week. I'd like to share my happiness with everyone

EDIT: I am completely in love with my new layout. before, I was srsly afraid to use it but I was thinking that this new year needed a new lyt.

Writer's Block: Comfort Food

2009-01-10T03:01:06Z

When times are tough or you're feeling down, what's the one food you can count on to make you feel better?

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CHOCOLATE, hands down. because my healing occurs quicker when chocolate comes in brownie form.

Happy Holidays!

2008-12-19T22:50:53Z

in case I don't get online until January 3rd, Happy Christmahannukwanzakuh! (well, Happy Holidays) :3

you're hot then you're cold, you're yes then you're no

2008-12-15T00:56:18Z

aside from T.I.'s video with Rihanna that plays all day on MtvU (hellz yeah, it's like the only channel I watch now besides E! and Fuse), Kings of Leon get played every so often. and I really like that one song, "Sex on Fire". there's another one, I think it's called "Use Somebody"? yeah. that one. I might download them. these guys sound rly good and SOF is now one of my new ringtones!

also, I'm about 3/4 into The Heart is Deceitful Above All Things, by JT LeRoy - recommended by George Ryan Ross himself. okay, so maybe it was part of the Book Club/Northern Downpour fan club thing, but I like it think it's only meant for me. because he is my imaginary boyfriend and all... (;

"there is no such thing a lesbian, just a woman who's never met Jon Walker"

2008-12-09T21:49:15Z

my heart hurt all day; mom says it's the coffee. so I have to lay off the coffee for a while. I'm watching Knocked Up and I feel so much happier now. it's an ~~awesome~~ hilarious movie. after feeling all lost today I was relieved to get home and do nothing. today was a good day. I might start doing those Quote of the Day things. I'll leave you with a good one.

"   It is now the fall of my second year in Paris. I was sent
here for a reason I have not yet been able to fathom.
    I have no money, no resources, no hopes. I am the
happiest man alive."
                       - from Henry Miller's Tropic of Cancer

Writer's Block: Legends of Rock

2008-12-06T20:43:10Z

There are a few concerts that go down in musical history—Altamont, Woodstock, Live Aid, the Hannah Montana Best of Both Worlds tour—as legendary experiences. What live show stands as legend in your own experience?

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November 7, 2006 - Panic at the Disco was on the Nothing Rhymes with Circus Tour (really, nothing does) and we were the first date of their second headliner! I was so happy that they were my first concert, because I still remember it on random days and the adrenaline rush I got that night comes back in enormous waves. I wasn't front row but it was still an amazingly mind-blowing experience (oh and btw, MTV was there, lol). even though they were voted Best and Worst Live Performance of that year (WTF), they = amazing in my book. they're still my favorite band, so that must mean something, right? :}